I had a rough 2017…I was lied to, cheated on, lost my job, and continued my battle with depression and my own insecurities on a daily basis that only heightened throughout the year. A week before the new year, and this may shock a few people but I sat down and I talked to God…I don’t believe in the bible and I don’t believe in the church, I don’t believe in any form of faith that would belittle, or tell their followers to hate a group of people, but I do believe in God and the entity he is believed to be, but that’s another post for another day.
I sat down and talked to god, and we had a long talk about what I want out of the 2018, and I soon realized that it isn’t about what I WANT but about what I NEED, I need to learn to open my heart again, I need to learn that there are rough patches and they are placed in our lives to teach us more…my rough patch was started when I got dumped for no reason and the reason I thought was true ended up being another lie, but who knows maybe I was ultimately a blessing for him and vice versa I just don’t know that yet I don’t have the clarity to realize that.
So far 2018 has been so great to me, I’m up for a promotion, I started my blog, I’m going back to school in the summer to finish my degree and honestly? I’m finding myself in the process, and for once in my life I’m not waiting for the other shoe to drop, as selfish as it may sound this year is all about me and what I can accomplish, I plan on being the happiest I can be every moment of every day and not to spiral back down to where I was mere weeks ago, and I know I can do it, but I also know it’s all up to me.
Don’t be a missed opportunity.
Stay happy and good luck everyone!